Just wanted to let you all know that the “Crazy” list I put together does not mean I have done all of those things. Sheesh. What kind of person do you think I am?
Part of the human condition is wanting people to think we’re okay, I suppose. Hence this quirky little post to explain that I did not do all those crazy things – some maybe, but not all. So I had to get on here and explain myself so I could stop obsessing about how you, my tortured Reader, may think I was just THAT wacko.
It’s hard for me to think of others not liking me because I really am quite nice. Usually. But I would venture to say there are those who don’t like me, and there maybe even the ones who hate me. And I don’t blame them. I would hate me too for some of the ways I have behaved.
Yet, in the end – nice, mean, crazy or sane – I am the only me I have. When I put on the masks that I alluded to in the post, “Shouldn’t I KNow this…” It is still me underneath. There’s much work ahead, but I am slooooowly realizing that the work it takes to get to the place of total “okayness” will start with the humility to ask God for the help I need. So for today I pray, “Help me, Jesus.”